My Personality and My Saturday

There are two sides to me. The predominate side is my quiet, private side. I'm a very guarded person. When someone enters my room, it drives me crazy. Even if I'm in the room with them. There's something about breaking that barrier of door that irritates and discomforts me. My other side, which is about 10% of who I am, is my energetic, "social" side. It's the personality that comes out when I give presentations or when I'm hanging out with a group of friends or go to events with other people. It's the fun, charismatic side of me. It's my let-loose side. The reason I'm not like that all the time is because it is exhausting. I can only be energetic and charismatic for a brief period, and then I'm the quiet, private persona again. I need time alone to gather my thoughts and settle myself into a peaceful state of mind. Being around people puts me out of my mind; my brain is rushing to gather new information every second, and eventually I wear out.

On Saturday night I went by myself to a small theater in Los Angeles to see a play. They were performing A Midsummer Night's Dream. It was nice. The first thing that bothered me was that I didn't know where to really stand or go. There were other people around, but I'm not one to approach strangers for casual conversation. I hate, hate small talk. Anyway, the play was all right. It felt a little long at some parts, and I got lost in the language a few times (even though I've read the play one-and-a-half times, and even wrote a paper on it). It was a small theater, so most of the 80 or so seats were empty, and most of the people there were either friends or family of someone in the play, which was kind of funny. I was neither. Like I said, it felt a little long in some places, especially toward the end. I spotted a lot of fidgeting in seats. But it was good. There's really something about seeing a person act in front of you versus seeing a picture on a screen that alters the way you watch. I guess it's more self-conscious. You're aware that at any time, the actor could turn and say their lines to you. In a way, you feel included in the action. Anyway, I didn't cry or anything, and sometimes the humor was kind of dumb, but overall, I had a good time. I'd like to see more plays soon.