I had a really vivid dream about my dad last night.
I was working at some hardware place--Home Depot or Lowe's or wherever. My job was to handle and stack the sod. (Sod is pre-grown pieces of grass, in case you don't know.) And I was sitting in this large, empty warehouse-type room, crying because I couldn't stack the pieces of sod. Everything was falling and breaking apart, and there were pieces all over the place. I didn't know what to do. Then I see my dad, and he starts helping me. He's cutting slices of queso fresco (Spanish cheese) and sticking them to the broken pieces of sod. And as I'm watching him, I begin to calm down. I start doing the same, and pretty soon I have a small pile of sod that's not broken apart. Then more sod comes in, but these pieces aren't broken. They're nice and thick. I start stacking the new pieces. My dad is next to me, watching me as I work. I'm so busy working that I don't immediately notice when my dad leaves. I start to panic, thinking I won't be able to do anything without him. Then some lady approaches me, and hands me something. (This is how you know I play a lot of Dungeon & Dragons.) Even without reading the note she hands me or whatever it was, I know what it is: it's a magical item--like a staff or something--and it's called the Muddy Companion. What is does is whenever I feel overwhelmed or about to break apart, I can use it to summon my dad for help--no matter what. It's like a magical spell. It was like always having my dad nearby. I don't know how I knew all that, because as soon as she handed me the magic item, my mind immediately popped to the surface of my conscious mind and I woke up crying. Tears were dripping off my face onto my pillow. However, I was smiling because I felt so loved and happy and proud of my dad, and kept thanking him, over and over again for helping me. It was all so real, mixing dream with reality. I was awake, but not in control of my thoughts. I know it was only a dream, but I realized that that's how I actually feel about my dad: proud, happy, and grateful. After I finished crying, I fell asleep a few minutes later still smiling.
Anyway, that was last nights dream.
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I've missed your blogging. I had a long memorable dream last night.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you have a good dad. Also a little jealous. But mostly glad. :)
Well it was one of those dreams you remember when you wake up but then forget more and more throughout the day. Right now all I can remember is that I was supposed to be going to a wedding with Andrew, and he was going to drive, but then someone called and told me he wasn't coming so my mom and I were freaking out about how I was going to get to the wedding.
ReplyDeleteCoincidently I had the exact same experience a few weeks ago, not the same dream but follows the same wavelength. Woke up drenched in tears that continued even after I was awake and the impact stayed with me for the rest of the week.
ReplyDeleteI think it's incredible how the subconscious can trigger dreams and thoughts like this, sometimes we get lost and forget what's really important.