Appreciation

A Process

As I age, my interests broaden.

When I was a kid, I focused on myself. My thoughts were mainly about me, concerned only for me. I think that's natural (but, hey, what do I know?).

When I got to be a little older, I started to notice the people around me. Slowly, it became clear to me that most people don't have the same thoughts and opinions as I do, and that they're not as concerned about me as I am. Their concern is for themselves - which caused a struggle within myself to understand what they wanted or needed.

This led me to my current emotional stage: to learn an empathetic connection with other people. The main focus of which is to feel what other people feel. To ignore my own needs and wants, and to concern myself with what others need or want. Feeling elation and melancholy that isn't my own, yet treated as if it were. I'm still struggling with this, but I'm trying everyday to improve.

That's not the end of this process, though. It may not even be the beginning, actually (because, hey, what do I know?). The next step, I think, is appreciation. Valuing other people, and caring for them. No longer ignoring my wants and needs, but transforming them to appreciate and care for the people in my life.

That's the final step of emotional maturity, I think.

Care and appreciation are not a stamp, but a process; and it will take the rest of my life to fulfill them.

A Small Word

What I want to say - what I need to say - is this: I value you a whole lot. I am so grateful that you read and comment, and tolerate (I assume) all the stupid things I have to say.

Life would be a little more grim if I didn't know you. I appreciate your thoughts and feelings, and I respect you and your thoughts and feelings as best as I can (despite my bouts of stupidity).

You're an absolute lovely and joyful presence in my life. I cannot express my gratitude and appreciation enough.

Thank you.