that's like a soul
that cannot be touched
or harmed at all
--"number 5"
you should read WONDER by r.j. palacio. it's so so so so so very sweet and funny and kind and joyfully entertaining.
i wish i were a more driven, ambitious individual. i wish i had an urge to achieve great, wonderful things. but all i want to do is read and love.
if you do the work, the shit takes care of itself.
"number 3"
i need to transfigure my life.
i'm a cloud
when i could be rain.
i have a recurring day dream. i go back in time to when i was 6 in elementary school and start my life over again. i have the same brain as i do now. with it, i'm able to excel in everything i do. i sit in class, quietly, bored, and think about the ways i'll make my life better the second time around. that's my daydream: to start over my life.
wish i could go back in time
start my life over again
fix the mistakes that've led me here
don't want to live like this anymore
--from "number 2"
if i'm not honest with myself, who is left? i'm honest.
the title of my poetry collection: "Autobiography."
"number 1"
I see the unstoppable bending of light around you.
secretly we hug,
sweetly. she whispers, 'i love you,
i do'
--and
flickers
under
the
dark
street
lamp.
Ohhh I love Number 5 and especially Number 1.
ReplyDeleteWait, where's number 4?
I guess, since you can't go back and redo your life, you can start by making changes now?
Actually one time I said to a customer, "What would you like, sir?" And he said, "Your number." hahaha but he was just kidding. He's a regular who jokes with us a lot. And then we have this other regular who seriously asked me out to a movie...But he's 64. SIXTY FOUR. Obviously I said no. What a creep.