I'm writing again; I'm reading again. I just finished It's Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizinni. It's about a fifteen-year-old guy who becomes clinically depressed when he enters a very competitive private high school, so he checks himself into a psychiatric ward for a few days. I'd say I have most of the thoughts he has, only to a lesser degree. He thinks he's worthless because he's not as smart as everyone else in his school; they get perfect grades, and do way more after-school activities like volunteering or sports--the kind of things that look good on an Ivy league application. That's exactly how I feel sometimes. It sucks. But funny enough, he and I reached nearly the same conclusion at the end (I won't tell you--no spoilers from me).
I wrote a love poem today for a girl who doesn't like me. Didn't give it to her, just wrote it.
Finals are this week. I'm screwed.
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ReplyDeleteI watched the movie It's Kind of a Funny Story. I hated it and found it somewhat offensive. Some of it (or a lot of it) I can relate to, but still. It was just so...movie-ish. And nothing like real life.
I'm sorry, but I laughed when I read that you wrote a love poem for a girl who doesn't like you. There's this guy here who I think is really good looking and hilarious, but I hardly ever talk to him because I get really nervous. He was in my dream one night, so I told him about it, and it was pretty much the most awkward thing ever. Now he probably thinks I'm some weird psychopath.
I have a final this week too, and then one next week. I think I'm screwed too. Maybe I should study...or something.